So last Monday was the little guy’s first day in school. I know moms can relate to the tint of heartsick that tugged my heart when my little boy finally waved goodbye to me and then entered the doors of his classroom. Tears came rushing to my eyes and so I had to hide it, mostly in shame. In my head, that was a symbolism of so many things. That my little one is growing up. And that I am sending him out to the big world already. Deep inside, my heart was also beaming with pride. Those were also tears of joy! Hey, my Kyle is officially a school boy already!
When I left him in school that day, there were so many worries that ran in my head. Will he feel overwhelmed and anxious? Will he eat his food? Will he find new friends? When I entered the door of our home, there was emptiness. How I missed his giggles!
It’s the little guy’s 3rd day of school today. On my Instagram and Facebook I posted this:
How I love what one of my friends commented on that post:
“I understand, I felt the same with Mig, he being my first born…nowadays, there is a permanent block in my throat as well while I await the day of his leaving for SG to work there….but as parents I think our role is really to help our kids build their wings so they can fly….”
I can’t agree more. Our role as parents is to help our kids be the best that they can be. There are just some letting-go pains that are so beautiful because they bear delicious fruits, that we should weather as moms.
This also made me remember what my own dad told me as well when I graduated from college. “Your wings are now fully developed. You are ready to fly. Fly high, anak! ” That’s how my dad speaks. Full of symbolisms. I again heard those similar lines when I told him that I was going to be a mom, his advice was something about flying and protecting my family by spreading my wings. Right now, I am allowing my kid to try his very own wings.
Indeed, sending our little Kyle to school is one of the many first things that Alex and I will do for him to prepare him for his the bright future ahead.
How about you? How did you feel sending off your kid to his classroom on his first day of school?